Today is the day i talk to her the least. I guess this is the hardest day of my life from today onward. It is hard but i know because of her happiness, i must do it. I feel the emptiness in me again. That emotion and feelings that creeping me out. My mind are thinking about her today. I'm worried about her but yet i can't do anything. I hope she have made the right decision... Tmr morning i have training and i think my performance would be sucked again. Seriously, i think god are being bias to me. They purposely made my life to go through so many hard experience. I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm sad. I do not know how long more i can take this. Why can't i have a second chance to shine myself? I wish i can end my life but is not easy... Why must i be born on earth in the first place...
